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awj skUn rfs af irhf sI. smF bIq igaf, gwl afeI geI ho geI. jy nhIN hoeI qF ho jfxI cfhIdI sI. brsfq afeI, pfxI idisaf qy iPr pfxI cyiqaF ivc vs igaf. Aus vsy pfxI dI irmiJm vkq dI muQfjL nhIN rhI. icwkV ivc kml hI nhIN AuWgdy, icwkV ivc kIVy mkOVy vI huMdy hn. ienHF kIiVaF dI sLnfKq krdy, kml dy Puwl cMgy lwgdy hn. ienHF kIiVaF dI gwl nUM awKoN proKy krdy Puwl, kml dy Puwl nhIN sdINdy. PuwlF qy kIiVaF dy ivcfly KVy ivcfry, prK krdy rihMdy hn ijvyN Auh iksy Kyz df mYc vyK rhy hox. mYc drsLk vI vyKdf hY qy rYPLrI vI, Prk qy isrP ijLMmyvfrI df hY. mYN keI vfr socdf hF ik mYc vyK irhf rYPLrI ikqy qF afpxy aMdr dy drsLwwk df koeI Cotf ijhf bol qF suxdf hI hovygf. ikqy qF koeI iKzfrI Aus dy rYPrIpuxy nUM llkfrky Aus dI ibrqI BMg krdf hI hovygf. aksr rYPrI vI qy kdy iKzfrI hI huMdy hoxgy. rYPrI vI iensfn hn qy sfnUM rojL ijMLdgI ivc rYPrI imldy hn. sB ny afpo afpxy Kyq mwly hoey hn. asl ivc ieh dunIaF hI sfrI rYPrIaF nfl BrI hoeI hY. koeI Cotf qy koeI vwzf afpo afpxIaf sItIaF mfrdy qy ijLMdgI dy byhqr plF nUM boJl krdy, afpxIaF mnmfnIaF ibnsdy, CFgdy, CFtdy, Coty qoN Cotf krdy BMblBUsy ivc pey afpxI ruksqI nUM lmkfAuNdy qury jFdy hn jF kih lAu sfrI Aumr hI ruksqI dI iqafrI ivc ibqf idMdy hn. afKrI sItI mfrn df mOkf qF iksy iksy nUM hI imldf hY.
‘afp afey bhfr afeI.’ mYN muskrfieaf.
“ sr jI asIN quhfnUM ims krFgy.”
“mI tU” mYN muskrfky hlkf hoieaf. myrI kfPLI grm nhIN rih geI sI pr ajy TMZI vI nhIN hoeI sI jd ik ho jfxI cfhIdI sI. mYnUM lwgf ieh kfPI df kosf kwp qF myry awgy dhfikaF qoN ipaf hY. mYN hr vfr iesnUM hwQ ivc PVky iesdI grmfiesL mihsUs kr lYNdf hF. myrI afdq hI bx geI hY ik mYN afpxf kfPI df kwp kdy vI Kqm nhIN krdf.
“sr jI ipwql dy glfs ivc guV dI cfh hovy, qwqI qwqI, rjLfeI dI buwkwlHH hovy qy bMdf sV sV krdy bulHF nfl afKrI Guwt qwk pIvy dIpy vFg, qF hI mjLf afAuNdf hY.” hrI ny afpxy kfPLI dy Zwkx nUM mroVf ijhf dyky qoiVaf sI. Aus dIaF awKF ivc jMnUnI qIbrqf sI. “mYnUM lwgdf qusIN vI mornIaF vfly ipwql dy glfs ivc hI psMd krdy ho qF hI qy afpxI kfPI nUM kdy Kqm nhIN krdy.” hrI ny ieh gwlF AudoN kIqIaF sn jdoN Aus ny afpxy swjy pYr nUM klfk vfeIjL nhIN GuMmfieaf sI.
aTfrF sfl gujLfry hn mYN iewQy. awj lMc awDy GMty df nf ho ky y GMty df sI. munImF vFg socF qF cfr ku sO df ksfrf sI sfrf. cvI GMty swqy idn cwlx vflI pMj nMbr msLIn ajy vI phIey bxf bxf pty qy suwtI jf rhI sI. kirstl plfsitk nUM TMzf hox df pqf nhIN kfhdf cfa ciVaf sI myrI irtfiermYNt df ilhfjL vI nhIN kr rhI sI. pqf nhIN ikqny ku GMty gujLfry sn mYN ies msLIn nfl. mxF mUMhIN qyl idwqf hoxf mYN ies msLIn nUM pr ieh ikhVI iksy nfloN Gwt hY. iesnUM vI koeI aPsos nhIN. ho skdf hY, iesnUM vI afpxf kMm muwkf ky tuwtx dI kfhlI hovy. ikqnf ku icr koeI cwl skdf hY. JUTIaF qfrIPLF qy swcI ivdfiegI dy ivcfly sPLr bfry socF qF bwcy vI pVH gey, Gr vI bx igaf qy swjI KwbI kbIldfrI vI nijwTI geI qy bIvI ajy vI iccVI vFg myry nfl hI lmkI iPrdI hY. irtfiermYNt dI nf koeI nUrI KusLI nf koeI Julisaf gm, bs PrIjLz trkI vFg myry hwQ ivc kuJ PiVaf hoieaf sI pr ijsm dy aMdr idl nfm dy BwulyKy nfl rUh vflf pfsf iewk skUn nfl jLrUr rijaf hoieaf sI. rUh nUM mqvflI pihcfn ho geI sI. idl qF kbjLf Bfldf hY qy kbjyL kdy vI sLrIPL nhIN huMdy.
iksy dI Btkx dUr krn leI myrIaF koisLsF, kuJ kr skIaF jF nhIN pr myrI afpxI Kurcx ny myrI afpxI Btkx qy bUr jLrUr ilaFdf hY. AumrF dIaF pOVIaF cVidaF myry afpxy aMdrly muMzy dIaF lgfmF nUM nkyl jLrUr peI hY.
myrI Aumr AudoN msIN pMqflI sfl sI qy myry aMdrly muMzy dI Aumr aTfrF sfl jdoN Auuh sfzI PYktrI ivc hfier hoeI. iewk hPLqf pihlF kMtrol qoN bfhr hoey afrzrF nUM sMBflx leI borz dI mIitMg ivc mYnUM hdfieq hoeI, koeI vI afvy hfier kr lvo. vrkrF nUM kho afpxy dosqF nUM dsx. Evr tfiem dI prvfh nf kro.
“my afeI km ien?”
“XYs XYs” qy Auh myry sfhmxy af ky bYT geI. mYN Aus nUM bYTx leI nhIN ikhf sI iPr vI Auh bYT geI. iewk XkIn nfl bYTI, Auh myry hfv BfvF df koeI icwqr bnfAux lwg peI. aYsf mYN socdf hF sLfied Auh aYsf nf soc rhI hovy. ‘socx ivc kI prfblm hY?’ iehI ikhf sI iksy vkq hIrI ny.
“prfblm qy koeI nhIN pr socx leI idmfg cfhIdf hY qy idmfg kol pqf nhIN kI kI cfhIdf hY. qyry kol idmfg qF hY pr idmfg kol ‘kI kI’ nhIN.”
“rihx idAu sr jI myry kol bhuq kuJ hY, mYnUM idmfg dI loV hI nhIN.”
mYN Aus dI aYplIkysLn afpxy hwQ ivc PV leI.
“tU dI pMvFieMt juafb dyxf hY, hF jF nhIN ivc, smJ geI?” mYN aPsrI dy afhlf aMdfjL ivc aYplIkysLn qoN iDafn cuwk ky Auhdy vwl srsrI vyKky ikhf.
srsrI njLr nfl dyKx vflI koeI zOl nhIN sI Auh. kfsL mYN kflIaF aYnkF lfeIaF huMdIaF. njLr dIaF aYnkF nfl ikwQy qusIN sfrf kuJ dyK skdy ho? gol mtol Puwl, iqwKy qrfsLy bUty, AuWcy nIvyN phfV, phfVF ivcwlI islHI islHI zMzI, ryigsqfn ivc afey qUPfn qoN bfd vflI sLFqI nfl susqfAuNdI kwkI kwkI ryq ikqoN AuWcI ikqoN nIvIN pr hr pfisAuN mulfiem ijs nUM Cohx nUM idl krdf hY, srdI ruwqy pYNdI sB qoN pihlI sno jo ikqy Kih ky kdy aV jFdI hY jF aVx df bhfnf krdI hY, iehnF sB nUM aYnkF qoN bgYr hI vyKxf bxdf hY pr sohbq qoN ibnHF aYnkF ikwQy KihVf CwzdIaF hn. mYN pOxf ku hI dyK sikaf, ijnHy dI iejfjLq sI.
aYplIkysLn vyKky myrf kuJ mKOl krn nUM jIa kIqf pr afpxy jIa df glf Guwt ky ieqnf hI puwiCaf: “ imsjL igwl, aYjUkysLn?”
“ jI bI[ey.”
“juafb hF jF nhIN ivc idAu. mYN izgrIaF nhIN puwCIaF.”
“jI XYs.”
“isLPLt vrk krogy?”
“jI hF.
“kfr hY?”
“jI nhIN”
“XU afr hfierz. imsjL hrI igl.” mYN aYplIkysLn qy not ilKky pryH rwK idwqI.
“mubfrk.” myry aMdrly muMzy ny hwQ imlfAux leI awgy vDfieaf. hrI ny Jkdy Jkdy myry nfl hwQ imlfieaf. Aus idn mYN pMj muMzy qy cfr kuVIaF hfier kIqIaF pr hwQ mYN hor iksy nfl nhIN imlfieaf. sfiraF nUM syPtI sUL lYky afAux dI qfkId krky AuhnF dIaF isLPtF alft kr idqIaF.
agly idn mYN kMm qy pMdrF imMt pihlF phuMc igaf. hrI iewk drsLnI nOjvfn nfl aYNtrYs kol KVI sI. ieh PYslf krnf aOKf sI ik dovF ivcoN ijLafdf sohxf kOx hY. mYnUM vyKky hMs myry kol af gey.
“ieh myr hsbYNz hn primMdr qy primMdr ieh hn sfzy PormYn gopI jI.” hrI ny hlkf ijhf muskrf ky cyhry dy KyVy nUM isvfieaf kridaF ikhf. mYN primMdr nfl hwQ imlfAuNidaF afpxy aMdrly muMzy nUM Cotf Cotf mihsUs kIqf. myrI krV brV PrYNc kwt dfVI ivc mfmUlI ijhI Kurk hoeI ijs nUM mYN njLr aMdfjL krnf cfihaf. bhuq koisLsL krn dy bfvXUd vI mYnUM lukvyN ZMg nfl QoVHI ijhI Kurk krnI hI peI.
“jI hrI df iKafl rwiKAu. ajy huxy hI ieMzIaf qoN afeI hY ikqy AuDr nf jfey. mYN qy kihMdf sI kMm nf kr, pVHfeI kr lY pr iehnUM kmfeI krn df cfa ciVaf hY.”
“jI qusIN iPkr nf kro, myrI CotI BYx vFg hY. mYN Audfs nhIN hox idMdf.” mYN kuPLr qolidaF primMdr dIaF sfrIaF icMqfvF qoN Aus nUM mukq kr idwqf. hrI dIaF awKF ivc vI insicMqqf af geI. Aus dIaF BfvnfvF nfl myry vl qkdIaF gol mtol awKF, mYnUM hor vI sYksI lwgIaF.
“awj quhfzy sfiraF dy ien tfiem mYN hwQ nfl ilKFgf. afAUt tfiem leI qusIN idwqy kfrz afp svfeIp krny hn qy kwlHH qoN ien qy afAUt tfiem qusIN afp krny hn.” mY sfiraF nUM svfeIp kfrz PVfAuNidaF ikhf. pihlI GMtI qoN pihlF ien kfrz svfeIp hoxf cfhIdf hY. isLPt Kqm hox vyly pihlI bYl hox qy hI vrk plys qoN ihlxf hY. pihlI qy dUsrI bYl df ivckfrlf tfiem quhfzI sfPL sPfeI df hY. ijMnf icr dUsrf Auprytr af nf jfey msLIn nUM Aupryt krnf bMdf nhIN krnf. Kfs krky kirstl plfstk qy TMzf hox nUM vkq hI nhIN lfAuNdf. bryk tfiem qy quhfnUM irlIvr irlIv krygf. bryk tfiem koeI pwkf nhIN hY. aYnI kuascn?” mYN sfrf kuJ smJf ky afKrI gwl khI.
“hF qy koisLs kro, vfsLrUm nf jfxf pvy qy jy jLrUrq pY hI jfvy qF hYlp btn npo, koeI nf koeI quhfzI shfieqf leI af jfiegf.”
mYN kih qy idwqf pr hYlp dy nfm qy myry kol isrPL do hI kfmy sn. iewk rItf qy iewk mfrIaf. mfrIaf qy BrosymMd sI, BMbIrI vFg GuMmdI rihMdI. bryk tfiem qoN pihlF hI pUrI iqafrI kr lYNdI pr rItf plFt mYnyjr nfl PsI hoeI sI. progrYs cfrt bnfAux leI jy swjy hwQ ivc pYNn huMdf qy Kwby hwQ ivc ilpsitk GuwtI rKdI. Aus nUM msLIn qy Auprytr lfAuxf myry vws ivc nhIN sI. pqf nhIN svyry svyry AuWTky ieqnf mykawp iks qrHF kr lYNdI? smJ qy ieh vI nhIN afAuNdI ik ieqnf hsUM hsMU krdI df zfievors iks qrHF ho igaf. afpxy hoey qy bIq rhy zfievors df Aus nUM Borf vI aPsos nhIN sI. `XfrF sfl dy muMzy df Aus nUM koeI iKafl nhIN sI. pqf nhIN cfr sfl ivc Aus dIaF awKF ieqnIaF CotIaF ikvyN ho geIaF? sLfied dUr qwk dyKx dI qmMnf hI nhIN sI rhI Aus dI . brykF idMdI ies qrHF ivhfr krdI ijvyN AunHF qy aihsfn kr rhI hovy. pr iewk Pfiedf vI sI Auhdf irlIv kIqf Auprytr kdy vI lyt nhIN sI ho skdf.
Aus idn mwKx isMG mtIiral hYNzlr CwutI qy sI . PrYNk mkYink mwKx isMG dI jOb krn lwg ipaf qy mY PrYNk dI jgHf molz cyNj krn ivc ruwJ igaf. msLIn nMbr swq df molz cyNj krky mYN msLIn cflU kr idwqI. sq sO pIs pUry krn qoN bfd msLIn nMbr pMj df molz vI cyNj krnf sI ijwQy hrI kMm kr rhI sI. sq sO pIs bnx nUM ajy do GMty lgxy sn.
molz cyNj krn lwigaF mYN hrI nUM ikhf, “hIrI, af jLrf lONg nojL plfier PVfeIN. iewk PImyl pIs molz ivc Pisaf ipaf hY. myl pIs kdy vI molz ivc nhIN Psdy.” myrI guwtrgUM nUM suxky hrI ny hYrfnI nfl myry vwl vyiKaf qy plfier PVf idwqf. mYnUM pqf sI hrI nUM hIrI df nfm dyxf iksy mYsjL df sMkyq hY pr ieh mYN jfx buwJ ky nhIN ikhf sI. pqf nhIN iks qrHF kih ho igaf. pr hrI ajy sLsLopMj ivc hI sI. Auh kI socdI sI jF socdI vI sI jF nhIN. mYN ieh socidaF molz dy nwt KolH irhf sI.
afKrI nt KolHx lwigaF mYN hIrI vl vyiKaf. hrI myry vl vyK rhI sI. mNY afpxy moty sLIsyL vflIaF aYnkF lfh leIaF. sLfied ieh socky ik myrIaF nMgIaF awKF dy swc dI iewk Jlk hrI vI vyK lvy qy jMmI hoeI brPL df iewk qupkf aCoply ijhy Aus PLrsL qy izg pvy ijs qy kuJ hI dUrI qy hIrI afpxy pYrF AuWqy KloqI hoeI sI. hrI dy pYr Bfry syPLtI sLU ivc kYd sn. Auh sLU jo Aus nUM Aus dy pqI prmysLr ny KrIdky idwqy hoey sn. syPtI sLUjL ny hrI df sfrf smfn cuwikaf hoieaf sI. Aus df sfrf smfn slIky nfl sijaf hoieaf sI. sjfvt ivc koeI bnfvt nhIN sI. hr cIjL afpxI pUrI Tuwk nfl QF itkfxy sI. TfTF mfrdy joLbn dy sLor ivc jy koeI gieb vsqU sI qF Auh sn Aus dy inwky inwky supny. sony cFdI dI koeI vI cIjL Aus dy hwQF kMnF ivc nhIN sI. Aus dIaF awKF dI sulJx iksy qlfsL ivc idsdI sI. ieMJ lwgdf sI ik Auh afpxI rUh dI KusLbo nUM ZUMzdI, afpxy hI isrjy sMsfr df inwG mfnx qoN vFJI iewk plfsitk zOl vFg qurI iPrdI hY.
ho skdf hY ieh myrf vihm hI hovy jF ieh vI ho skdf hY ik mYN hI ieh cfhuMdf hovF ik aYsf hI hovy. ieh inwG qF bcpn huMZfAuNdf hY. ieh inwG qF hOlI hOlI grmfAuNdf hY. ieh inwG qF kuJ qlfsLdf hY. ies qlfsL dy srokfr hI hrI nUM hIrI bxfAuNdy hn. myrIaF bfr bfr iqlkdIaF awKF ny hIrI dI ivhUxI njLr pVHn dI koisLsL kIqI. mYN DoKf Kf igaf, sfrf kuJ Bfr rihq nhIN huMdf qy mYnUM pqf hI nhIN lwgf kdoN do sO iklo df molz afpxIaF rokF tokF qoN iKsk ky myry pYrF qy izg ipaf. iewk jLordfr avfjL nfl myrI cIk vI rl geI. syPLtI sLU imDdf hoieaf Bfrf molz myry pYr dIaF do AuNglF nUM vI imD igaf.
myry kMnF ny hrI dI cIk suxI. ieh cIk koeI EprI nhIN sI, afpxI sI. Aus dIaF motIaF gol mtol awKF ivc iewkdm qYry aQrU vyKky myry aMdr iewk BMn qoV hoeI. ies BMn qoV nUM mYN aihsfs df nfm nhIN dy skdf. qrylIAu qrylI hoieaf pIlf BUk cyhrf, iewklI pIV nfl hI Biraf hoieaf nhIN sI. KUn nfl lwQpwQ myry bUtF dy qsmyN hrI KHol rhI sI. iewk inwG, inrivGn myrI rUh nUM Coh irhf sI. rUh dI hUk nUM jldI jldI koeI nfm idwqf vI nhIN jf skdf. ieh qF iensfnIaq dI iewk glvkVI sI. ijs df myry aMdrly muMzy nfl koeI lYxf dyxf nhIN sI. hrI ny Bjky pfxI df glfs ilaFdf. mYnjmYNt dI BIV nUM Dus nfl cIrdI hrI, ies kfienfq dI mflk lwg rhI sI.
PYktrI qy iesdy isstm nUM ingUxf smJdy hoey Aus ny pfxI df glfs myry mUMh nUM lgfieaf. mYN kdy kdy afpxI iekwlqf nfl gwlF kridaF soicaf krdf sI ik iensfn sfrI ijLMdgI ivcrdf mF-bfp, BYx-Brf, pirvfr smfj nfl rihMidaF iewk vI iensfn dI kmfeI nhIN krdf ijs nfl Auh sfry duK suK sFJy kr sky. apxy sfry pfp-puMn sFJy kr sky. iksy nfl iksy gwl df lko qy iksy nfl iksy hor gwl df lko. sLrmsfr krn vflIaF gWlF nUM sFJf krn leI vI koeI cfhIdf hY. koeI imlxf cfhIdf hY. pr lftrI inklx df cFs hY pr aYsf surKfb imlx df koeI cFs nhIN. sfrI ijLMdgI ivc aYsf inrCwl iensfn qF Auh hI ho skdf hY ijs nfl quhfzf koeI nfqf nf hovy, quhfnUM Cwlx nfl Aus df koeI vI Pfiedf juiVaf hoieaf nf hovy. ieh vI qy iewk sq-supnf hY, qyry duD dy glfs ivc mKxF mYN rl jfvF KMz bxky. nfqy qF prdf Bfldy hn. Auh quhfzI mF nf hovy pqnI qF iblkul nf hovy ieQoN qwk ik quhfzf dosq vI nf hovy. knPYLsLn nUM smJx vflf koeI isafxf vI nf hovy. ieQoN qwk ik bMdy df bxfieaf rwb vI nf hovy. rwb qF quhfzI khI hoeI gwl nMU knPYLsLn smJky, koeI rUp dy dyvygf. iewko hI sdfcfrI iKVkI KolHygf. afpxy pRCFvyN ivc lYky quhfzI Duwp Koh lvygf. bMdy df isrijaf kMmipAUtrI-rwb, swc kdoN boldf hY? rwb qF iensfn dy ipwCy hI ipaf rihMdf hY. Auh kdoN KusLboaF dI gwl krn idMdf hY? pr rwb vI kI kry, svIkfry rwb ivc asIN KusLbo bIjdy hI kdoN hF?
aYmbwulyNs ivc strycr qy suafr huMidaF aQfh pIV nUM shfridaF, hIrI dIaF awKF ivcwlI nmI ny iewk vwKry aMdfjL qoN socx leI mjbUr kr idwqf.
do mhIny dIaF CutIaF, bs mOjF hI mOjF. koeI iPLkr nhIN, koeI prozksLn, koeI progrYs cfrt, koeI svyry AuWTx dI kfhl nhIN bs QoVHf ijhf lMGVfAuxf qy aOKy ijhy ho ky bYTxf qy lytxf. ieh qy kuJ vI nhIN sI. bs QoVI ijhI qklIPL tfielt qy bYTx lwigaF ijLafdf huMdI sI, iPLr vI mYN KusL sI. PYktrI vfilaF iehnF do mhIinaF ivc myrI jgHf rItf nUM dy idqI. rItf dy mykawp df Krcf vD igaf qy vrkr zfhZy aOKy ho gey.
iewk idn zor-bYl hoeI. mYN lwqF GVIs ky afpxIaF POVIaF cuwkIaF qy drvfjLf KoilHaf. hrI qy primMdr bfhr KVy sn.
“siq sRI akfl BfjI.” hrI ny ikhf, qy primMdr ny myry nfl hwQ imlfieaf. ieDr AuDr dIaF gwlF mfrky, hIrI rsoeI ivc cfh bnfAux cly geI. cfh pINidaF asIN iqMnf ny rwj ky cuglI inMdf kIqI. Kfs qOr qy rItf dI qy qih hI lf idwqI. primMdr awjkwlHH do jObF kr irhf sI. swqy idn kMm krdy primMdr dy afpxy mnsUby sn qy ienHF mnsUibaF ivcoN hrI gfieb sI. hrI dIaF kIqIaF gwlF ivc AUxpuxy dI BrpUrqf sI. mYnUM mihsUs hoieaf jo mYN socdf sI Auh myry cyiqaF dI inrI pUrI gwp nhIN sI Auh koeI myrf inwj vI nhIN sI. ieh iewk hor hoxI dy musfPr sn. hrI, primMdr dy socy jf rhy pYsy nfl Burn vflI sLYa nhIN sI. Auh iewk dUjy df huMgfrf Brdy hsdy vI sn. iewk dUjy nfl iBwjy hoey vI sn iblkul Aus qrHF ijvyN mihMgy sUt nfl mihMgI tfeI lfeI hovy pr Auh sUt nfl mYc nf krdI hovy jF krdI vI hovy qF Auh mYc krdI lwgy nf. hlvfeI dy duwD dy kVfhy vFg. motI mlfeI vwKrI qy pqlf duwD vwKrf. bVI hI sOKI qrHF ibnHF duwD nUM qklIPL idwiqaF jdoN mrjLI mlfeI lfh lvo. mYN vI AunHF dy mihMgy kwpiVaF qoN pRBfivq nhIN sI, hF mlfeI dI hor gwl hY. golgwpy ivc pfeI kFjI jy golgwpy nUM qoV vI dyvy qF vI Aus df suafd nhIN guafcdf pr iewQy qF kFjI vDIaF boqlF ivc pfeI hoeI sI. ieh gwlF AudoN qy mYnUM aYvyN kYvyN hI lwgIaF aYvyN afpxy hI iKaflF df PqUr pr vkq bIqx nfl ieh gwl inqr geI ik myry iKaflF ivc aYvyN hI iPrI qfr ijhI glq nhIN sI. primMdr hwd drjy df vsqUvfdI sI.
GMtf ku bYTky Auh myrf Pon nMbr lYky cwly gey. AunHF dy jfx qoN bfad mYN soPy dI gwdI dy Qwly peI mDolI, awDpVI aKbfrI aprfD kQf nUM dubfrf pVHx lwg ipaf. sunIqf afpxy inafixaF nUM Cwzky afpxy pRymI nfl dOV cuwkI sI. awDy ku sPLy bfad hI Auh duKI ho ky inafxy Xfd krn lwg peI. aMq ivc Auho kuJ hoieaf jo mYN soicaf sI. aKbfr prHy rwKky mYN socxf sLurU kIqf ik mYN aYsf ikAuN soicaf sI jo khfxI dy aMq ivc hoieaf hY. ies aMq qoN sunIqf ikvyN bc skdI sI. sunIqf hI ikAuN mYN ies aMq qoN vwKrf ikAuN kuJ hor qsvr nhIN kr skdf sI? ies vwKry socx dy ZMg bfry socidaF, ieh hrI df cyhrf ikAuN DuMDlf DuMDlf myry jLihn ivc cwkr kwt irhf hY?
agly idn lMGy vfh iZJkUM iZJkUM kridaF, mYN cfh bxfky hitaf hI sI jdoN Pon dI GMtI vwjI.
Pon qy hrI sI, “gopI BfjI kI hfl hY quhfzf?” myry qoN vIh sfl CotI hrI, mYnUM afpxy hfx dI jfpI.
“ bs TIk hY, qyry Pon afey qoN ieho socdf hF ik kfsL ds sfl bfad jMimaf huMdf.”
“ nf Blf ieh kI gwl hoeI.”hrI df hfsf Cxikaf.
“ jF iPr qUM ds sfl pihlF jMmI huMdI.” mYN pUry ivsLvfsL nfl ikhf.
“ikAuN ies qrFH ikAuN huMdf?”
“Pyr qYnUM BfjI nf kihxf pYNdf.” Auh bolI qy kuJ nhIN pr hwsx lwg peI. Aus dy hfsy ny koeI suafl KVf kr idwqf. Aus dy hwsy suafl df, myry kol koeI GiVaf GVfieaf juafb nhIN sI pr iewk gwl pwkI hY ik mYN pjLYisvnYs mihsUisaf nhIN. iewk qlfsL dI zgr qy pihlf kdm Diraf lwigaF.
“BfjI sLbd ivc iewk vlgx hY. iewk ilmt, bws iewk hwd qwk qy Aus qoN bfad quhfzf Drm Kqry ivc. kI qUM nhIN cfhuMdI ies ilmt nUM anilmitz kr idwqf jfvy jF qYnUM myry qy ivsLvfsL nhIN?” hrI Pon qy Pyr hws peI.
“ nf hsdI ikAuN hYN?” mYN pOVI dy dUsry zMzy qy pYr DridaF ikhf.
“mYN af rhI hF quhfzy kol. awj qoN bfd hr sLfm quhfzI rotI lYky afieaf krFgI ijnHF icr BfbI jI nhIN ieMzIaf qoN muVdy.”
“ ies ivc Kycwl kfhdI. do rotIaF Qpx ivc kfhdI qklIPL. bs sr aYvyN qusIN mjLfk krdy ho. ies krky hsdI hF.” kfPIL tybl qy Kfxf lgfky Auh soPy qy bYT geI. Aus ny BfjI dI bjfey mYnUM sr ikhf.
“ mYN mjLfk nhIN kr irhf. mjLfk qF ieh huMdf jy mYN kihMdf ik hIrI rotI nhIN mYnUM Bwqf cfhIdf hY. mYN qF ijLMdgI nfl gwlF kr irhf hF.” hrI cuwp ho geI, isrPL kuJ hor suxn leI.
“ qyrI iekfgrqf df kI juafb idaF. bws qyrIaF awKF ivcwlI AudfsI vyKI hY. qUM ijLMdgI qoN KusL nhIN hYN. ieqnI suafd rotI, ieqnI sohxI kuVI qy ieqnIaF ivrfn awKF! myrI ijLMdgI mOq dy pl ivc qyry pfxI dy glfs ny mUMhoN bolky ikhf hY ik mYN qyrf KyVf cfhF. bs ieqnI ku hI gwl hY, myry dosq.”
“mYN zrdI hF sr.” hrI dy bol iBwjy hoey sn.
“BfjI nfloN sr cMgf pr jy qUM cfhyN qF sr kihxf vI Cwz skdI hYN. mYnUM KusLI hovygI.”
“kI khF?” hrI dy iBwjy hoey bol kuJ inKr rhy sn.
“ mYN nhIN kihMdf mYnUM zfrilMg kih pr koeI hrj vI nhIN pr Auh qy qyrf primMdr hY hI. bs ivc ivcfly kuJ kih lY.”
“ qusIN hI dwso, kI khF?” hrI cFBlI ijhI kih rhI sI.
“ mYnUM nhIN pqf. jo mrjLI kih, pr nf BfjI nf sr. kuJ afpxf ijhf. prfeypn qoN bgYr. kuJ vI, koeI vI nfm, dosq, imwqr, shylI, dusLmx, bdmfsL. bs mYN qF cfhuMnf myry pYr dI pIV nUM mihsUsx vflI mYnUM pjYisv nf smJy. isrP afpxf smJy.”
“ E ky aoky dosq jI, mYN kwlHH nUM duiphry Pon krky dsFgI ik kI ikhf jfvy quhfnUM.” hrI ny BFzy ZINzy sMBfl ky QFAuN QFeI itkf idwqy qy cwly geI.
hr sLfm Kfxf lYky afAuNdI hrI ijvyN ies Coty ijhy ilv-rUm df ihwsf bx geI. lFzrI krdI vYikAUm krdI myry afsy-pfsy iPrdI, inwkIaF inwkIaF gwlF krdI, myry leI ikqny hI suafl Cwz jFdI. Aus df hr suafl myry leI iemiqhfn huMdf. ikqy nf ikqy mYN prysLfn jLrUr sI. koeI qy gwl sI jo sfzy ivc ivcfly sFJI nhIN sI. Aus df koeI vI vfk myry qwk inrivGn nhIN phuMcdf sI. Aus dI koeI vI gwl, myrI soc nUM hor hI pfsy lY jFdI. iksy vI gwl df iswDf pfsf myry leI musIbq bxdf jf irhf sI. Aus dy khy sLbdF dy kI mqlb hn, AunHF arQF df mYN kI juafb dyxf hY? hOlI hOlI mYN mihsUs krn lwg ipaf ik ieh zr myrf afpxf hY. myrf hI inwj, rukfvt hY. mYN hor vI sqrk ho igaf. afpxy pfxIaF nUM inrml krn dy myry Auprfly, DrqI dy hfxdy hox lwgy. inwky inwky hfsy, Coty Coty lqIPy suxn sunfAux qoN bfad hrI nUM mihsUs ho igaf ik mYN hfrmlYs jIv hF. aOrq qy GVf lYx lwigaF vI txkfky vyKdI hY pr hrI ny mYnUM txkfAuNx ivc kuJ ijLafdf hI vkq lY ilaf jF ieh smJ lvo ik myry hI GVy df sMgIq lYa ivc afAux lwigaF kuJ smF lY igaf. gwlF suxdI, gihr gMBIr vI ho jFdI pr prnflf AuWQy df AuWQy, iewk guwTy ijhy. iPr iewk idn myrI khI gwl ny Aus df txkfAuNxf smfpq kr idwqf.
hrI ny Pon krky mYnMU itm hfrtn swidaf sI. kihx lwgI, “gopI jI hmny pMj nMbr msLIn qy kMm nhIN krnf mY nhIN hor sImf nfl kMm kr skdI. Auh inrI purI guafr hY.” sImf qy hrI dy hmysLF isMG PLsy rihMdy. kdy kdy gwl vD vI jFdI.
mYN ikhf, “ pqf hrI quhfzy dovF dI lVfeI ivc ksUr iks df hY?”
“ iks df ?”
“ qyrf, sO PI sdI qyrf. qUM Aus nUM bdlnf cfhuMdI hYN. qyry idmfg ivc ikqy nf ikqy ieh gwl bYTI hY ik Auh qyry vFg socy, qyrI soc vFg ivhfr kry. qyry vFg AuWTy bYTy. qUM ieh ikAuN nhIN socdI ik ieh qyry vs ivc nhIN qy qyrf ieh kMm vI nhIN. iensfn nUM smuwc ivc lYxf cfhIdf hY. jst ien totYiltI. awD pcwDf nhIN. Auh afpxIaF afdqF nfl afpxy twbr nfl jI rhI hY, bwcy pfl rhI hY, smfj ivc ivcr rhI hY qy ivcrn dy. Auhdy ierfdy bdlx dI qYnUM kI jLrUrq hY. qUM AuhdI gfeIz bxn dI koisLsL nf kr. ijs idn qyrf gfeIz bxn df ierfdf bdl igaf quhfzI lVfeI KLqm ho jfiegI, qyrf kMm azjst krnf hY.”
AuhdoN hI PLon dI GMtI vwjI. hrI ny Pon KolHH ky hYlo ikhf. “ hF mYN itm hfrtn hF, kfPI pIx gopI BfjI nfl. mYN phuMc jfvFgI.” hrI ny Pon Polz krky prs ivc pf ilaf.
“ kIhdf Pon sI?”
“ primMdr df.” iewk vfrI qF mYN iQVk igaf, soicaf kI socdf hovygf?
“ hF qy qusIN jo ikhf Auho TIk hY. hux myrI smJ ivc af igaf hY sr jI. sImf nfl mYN hux nhIN lVdI sr jI.”
“bs ieqnI hI gwl hY.” mYN afpxI gwl dI qfmIr npvf ky KusL hoieaf.
“ pr kI qusIN vI kdy mYnUM bdlx dI koisLsL kr skdy ho?”
“ hrigjL nhIN. mYN smuwc ivc ivsLvfsL rwKdf hF.”
“ pr quhfzy smuwcy ivsLvfsL df puwTf pfsf vI qy ho skdf hY.”
“ gwl iswDy jF puwTy dI nhIN. gwl dosqI dI hY. hrI dI dosqI dI.”
“ qy jy hrI qy dosqI do gwlF hox?”
“ iPr vI nhIN.”
“ soc lvo.”
“hrI iewk gwl dsF, kdy kdy mYnUM lwgdf hY qUM ijqnI sohxI hYN AuqnI isafxI nhIN. pr mYnUM isafxp nfl koeI srokfr nhIN. mYnUM qy dosqI nfl mqlb hY qy ijs df nfm hrI hY. drasl dosqI ivc isafxp hoxI hI nhIN cfhIdI.”
“ kdy sohxI kdy mohxI, qusIN dosqI dI afV ivc ikqy pjYisv qy nhIN huMdy jf rhy?”
“pjYisv ho ky mYnUM kI imlygf? vD qoN vD iewk pwpI jF do jF iqMn. iqMn cuMmIaF ipwCy mYN afpxf dosq qy nhIN gvfAux lwgf.”
“ vfry vfry jfeIey quhfzy iesLfiraF dy.”
“ vfry vfry jfAu mYN kdoN mnHF krdf hF. bhuq guxI igafnI, ruVy gVy vI ies pjYisvpuxy qoN mukq nhIN hn. kihx nUM qy jo mrjLI kih lvo pr nbyVy qF jfc nfl hI huMdy hn. nwcx df cwj hovy qF hI sMgIq dI iewjLq huMdI hY. iewk krYktr dI gwl qYnUM suxfAuNdf hF.
Auh Blfmfxs aOrq dI iewjLq hI nhIN krdf blik aOrqF qy hox vfly ienivijLbl jLulmF dIaF khfxIaF vI pfAuNdf hY. igafnvfn hY. aOrqjLfq dIaF nfiekfvF dIaF ikqnIaF hI AudfhrxF hn jo pqI dy sfey ivc rihky nwZIaF hI rihMdIaF hn vwzIaF nhIN huMdIaF. pqI dy sfey qoN bfhr af ky soc vI nhIN skdIaF. afpxy mrd dI iewjLq krdIaF krdIaF afpxf vwKrf srUp hI guaf bYTdIaF hn. sfzy Gr bYiTaF aOrqF iewkTIaF ho ky mfl nUM geIaF pr iewk nhIN geI jo nhIN geI Auh mukq sI afpxy afp qoN. afpxy nfm qoN anjfx Auh isrPL imisjL sI. prmysLr ny rotI qoN bfad do vjyy cfh pIxI sI. koeI duvfeI dvUeI KfxI sI. byvkUP qoN byvkUPL bMdf vI cfh bnfAux vrgf niKwD kMm kr skdf hY. jo cfh vI nhIN bxf skdf Aus nUM qy ivafh vI nhIN krvfAuNxf cfhIdf. pr AuhnF dy ipafr dI ieMqhf sLfhjhfn-mumqfjL dy iesLwk nUM mfq pf rhI sI.”
“ sr jI, gusqfKI muafPL quhfzI gwl tokI ieh ipafr qy iesLwk ivc PLrk kI huMdf hY?”
“ jdoN ipafr nUM buKfr cVH jfey. qfpmfn vsoN bfhr jo jfey. njLr kmjoLr ho jfey qy Auho kuJ idsy ijs nUM dyKx leI idl kry.”
“ieh kI gwl hoeI Blf, hmny nhIN smJI?”
“bws ieho qy gwl hY. sB kuJ jfxidaF buJidaF vI swc nhIN boldy. kbjLy nUM hI iesLk df nfm dyeI jFdy hn. bwuly ny vI iesLk kIqf sI. Aus df iesLk sfry jfxdy hn. kOx lft dI awK ivc awK pfvy. JUT boly kAUaf kfty[[[pr ieh JUT boldy kdoN hn? iehnF dI dlIl dI iKVkI hor huMdI hY. iehnF kol hjLfrF iKVkIaF huMdIaF hn. ijs iKVkI ivcoN TMZI hvf afey,Auho swc.” JUT bolx dI loV qF swcy afdmI nUM huMdI hY. JUT qF Auh huMdf hY ijs df pqf hovy ik Auh JUT hY ijs df pqf nhIN Auh sB swc hY.”
“pr ies JUT swc df inqfrf ikqy qF inwqrdf hI hoAU?” hIrI ny afpxI cIcI dy nONh nUM dMdF Qwly dbidaF ikhf.
“ies krky qF mYN qYnUM kihnY imldI irhf kr.”
“cwlo Cwzo prF, myry imlx jF nf imlx dI gwl, qusIN sLfhjhfn bfry kuJ kih rhy sI.”
“ hF qy mYN ikhf sI ik sLfhjhfn nUM cfh bnfAuxI nhI afAuNdI sI.”
“ nhIN nhIN gopI jI, qusIN Buldy ho. qusIN ikhf sI ik sLfhjhfn niKwD sI. hmny afp ienHF gunfhgfr kMnF nfl suixaf hY.”
“nhIN sLfhjhfn niKwD nhIN sI. jy Auh ieqnf hI inMkmf huMdf qF bfdsLfh ikvyN bxdf. myrf nhIN iKafl Auhny kdy vI afpxI mumqfj nUM hukm krky ikhf hovy, eyh jI sohixAu, mYnUM do vjyy cfh cfhIdI hY. ZfeI vjyy mYN drbfr lfAuxf hY. ieh qy mkbrf hI aYsf bxfAuNdy hn jo sohxf lwgy. mkbrf iks qrHF bixaf, Aus mkbry ivc mumqfj dIaF ikqnIaF KfihsLF dPLn hn? iesdf ihsfb AuhnF iksy nUM nhIN dyxf, nf mumqfj nUM qy nf prjf nUM. asl ivc hkUmq kridaF, ieh ihsfb AuhnF nUM Kud vI pqf nhIN huMdf.”
“ieh sr jI, kmfl dI gwl kIqI qusIN, idl krdf hmrI Aumr quhfzy ijqnI ho jfey.”
“ iPLr kI hoAU?”
“ieh qy jI bfibE pqf nhIN pr socx ivc kI prfblm hY.”
“ieh hrI, qyrf primMdr iks qrHF df hY? sLfhjhfn vrgf jF QoVHf Gwt-vD?”
“bhuq cMgf hY, dosq hY, myry srIr df mflk hY. myry qy XkIn krdf hY. kdy vI do vjyy cfh nhIN mMGdf.”
rfq dy do vjyy vI nhIN?”
“nhIN, rfq dy do vjyy vI nhIN.” hrI ny bhuq hI gMBIr ho ky ikhf. Aus dI avfjL ivc kihrF dI AudfsI sI. aYsI AudfsI jo Aus dIaF awKF ivc qlfsL bxky sfry sMsfr dI Koj kr rhI sI.
“iPr qy mfVI gwl hY.” mYN afpxy sLbdF bfry socx leI mjbUr ho igaf. aYsI AudfsI nUM koeI vI axquilaf sLbd bymyc ho skdf sI.
“mfVI vrgI mfVI, mYN qy cfhuMdI hF Auh myry qoN cfh mMgy. rotI mMgy, mYnUM khy myry bUt pfilsL kr. mYnUM khy myry pYrF dy noNh kwt jF khy jdoN qwk mYN kwpVy pfvF bfhr jfky kfr stfrt kr. kfr dI sno sfPL krn dy bhfny mYN Aus df kfr ivc pfieaf gMd vI sfP krF. sLfm nUM af ky, sfP kfr dI gfQf pfAuNdf Auh myrf mUMh cuMmy. agly idn mYnUM iPr Aus cuMmI dI ieMqjLfr hovy. ies cuMmI dI Kfqr mYN Aus df Gfh kwtF. mYN Blf afpxf smJky Gfh ikAuN ktF? mYN qF cfhuMdI hF, mYN qF cfhuMdI hF jdoN Auh sLrfb pIvy myry koloN afeIs mMgy. kdy kdy guwsy ivc af ky nsLy dy lor ivc myry QwpV mfry. iPr svyry AuWTky myry koloN muafPI mMgy.” hrI gwlF krdI krdI Bfvk ho ky rox lwg peI.
myrI smJ ivc kuJ nhIN af irhf sI. asIN dovyN dosq ndI dy do iknfiraF vFg bYTy sF. mYN afpxI hI gwl nUM AultfAuxf nhIN cfhuMdf sI. dosq nUM bdlx dI koisLsL nYiqkqf nhIN sI. ijhnF mkbiraF dIaF gwlF krky mYN hrI nUM KusL krn df Brm pfl irhf sI hrI qF AuhnF hI mkbiraF ivc dPn hox ivc afpxI KusLI Bfl rhI sI. mkbry dy Bory ivc jfx vflIaF pOVIaF dI qlfsL krdI kuVI df BUq, nMg mnMgf sI jF Aus ny iksy qrF df koeI mihMgf ilbfs pfieaf hoieaf sI. mYN AuWTxf hI byhqr jfixaF.
Gr af ky mYN zUMGI soc ivc pY igaf. mYN TIk sI jF hrI TIk sI jF asIN dovyN TIk sF? mYN hrI dy ivcfrF nUM iPr GoKxf sLurU kIqf. gwlF ivc leIaF KulHF nUM nfipaf pr myry hwQ pwly kuJ nf ipaf. hrI dIaF prqF ivc peI juaflfmuKI ivc ikhVI awg sI. Aus awg df syk ikho ijhf Bojn cfhuMdf hY? ikqny hI suaflF ny mYnUM Gyr ilaf.
iehnF suaflF ivc iGry, mYnUM hrI dy aMg mGdy idsx lwgy. mYnUM pqf hI nhIN cwilaf kdoN myry iKaflF ivc hrI df srIr aMgVfeI lYx lwgf. myry aMdr bYTf muMzf jfg irhf sI. Aus dIaF mfrIaF kUhxIaF mYnUM suxfeI dyx lwgIaF. ‘hrI nUM mrd cfhIdf hY kmilaf, myry muMzy ny llkfrf mfiraf. mOkf nf gvf. aOrq sdf qoN mDol hoxf psMd krdI afeI hY. ieho hrI dI ibmfrI hY. krdy Auhdf ielfj. hor hr mOky BwjI kfhqoN afAuNdI hY?’ myry aMdrly mUriCq ibwCU, zMG mfr mfr mYnUM byhfl kr rhy sn.
‘nhIN ieh TIk nhI myry afpxy vI kuJ vyg hn ik nhIN. cwl Cwz iehnF vygF vUgF nUM, toh ky qy vyK.’ myrf aMdrlf afpf, myry afpxy isrjy asUlF dy lYNtr qy mxF mUMhIN Bfr sut irhf sI. afKr lYNtr ivc qryV af hI geI qy mYN kuJ soc ilaf. bMdy dy bxfey rwb ny mYnUM ikhf, joVIaF qF rwb bxfAuNdf hY, DrqI qy qF isrPL jsLn huMdf hY.
awj hIrI nUM Pon kridaF myrf idl Gbrf irhf sI. isafxI kuVI hY, nFh vI krygI qF isafxp nfl hI krygI. vYsy aYsf mOkf nF hI afvy qF cMGf. afr jF pfr.
“jI sr jI.” hIrI ny Pon cuwk ilaf. mYN kuJ vI nf bol sikaf.
“ hYlo hYlo avfjL nhIN af rhI sr jI.”
sr bolU qF avfjL afAU aYvyN ikvyN avfjL afAU.
“hIrI awj sLfm nUM icwtf sUt pfky itm hfrtn phuMc jfvIN. no jInjL plIjL.”
hrI hwsx lwg peI. “ E ky sr jI, hmny awj jIn nhIN pfAuNxI, mYN af jfvFgI.”
sLfm nUM hrI hry sUt ivc kfr ivcoN AuWqrky itm hfrtn vwl af rhI sI. afAuNidaF hI hwsx lwg peI.
“ ieh icwty sUt dI kI khfxI hY?” Auh afAuNidaF hI bolI.
“ bws aYvyN hI, awj sLFqI vflf idn hY. jvfhr lfl nYhrU df jnm idn. mYN soicaf sLFqI dy drsLn kr leIey. pr qUM pfieaf ikAuN nhIN?”
“ mYN soicaf, sr jI aYvyN mjLfk krdy hn. primMdr vI suxky bhuq hwisaf.
“ kI primMdr nUM vI disaf qUM?”
“hor kI quhfzy qoN bfad Auhdf Pon af igaf. puwCdf sI, kI krdI hYN? mYN ikhf icwtf sUt lwBdI hF sr jI dI PrmfiesL hY. kihMdf icwtf sUt nf pfeIN, Auh pqlf bVf, aYvyN zlkF mfryNgI awgy ipwCy.”
mYN pfxIAuN pqlf hoeI jFdf sI. soc irhf sI, Gbrf irhf sI. idl krdf sI hoey bIqy nUM rIvFeIz kr idaF. inkly qIr nUM ipwCy moV lvF. soc irhf sI imwtI pfAux leI kI krF? hlkI jI trfeI aYvyN hI BfrI ho geI sI. pr hrI dy ivvhfr ivc koeI zfvF zolI nhIN sI. hoeI bIqI nUM bfd ivc socx dy zwby ivc bMd krky mYN kfPI isp kIqI.
“hrI iewk gwl qy ds.”
“ puwCo jI.”
“qUM jdoN vI iewQy kfPLI pIx afAuNdI hYN mYN iewQy huMdf hF kdy primMdr ny koeI sLwk nhIN kIqf?kdy guwsf nhIN kIqf?”
“ jI ipafirAu, mYN qF qrs geI hF ik Auh sLwk kry. myrf ipwCf kry, pr AuhnUM pYsy kmfAux `coN Pursq imly qF Auh sLwk kry. sLwk krn leI tfiem cfhIdf hY qy tfiem jnfb kol hY koeI nhIN. vYsy vI qusIN dyKx pfKx nUM myry aMkl lwgdy ho qy aMkl jI qy kfhdf sLwk.” hrI hwsx lwg peI.
“ gwl hwsx dI nhIN.”
“ hF gwl hwsx dI nhIN rox dI hY.” hrI isrIas ho geI. “ mYN qF cfhuMdI hF, Auh myry qy sLwk kry. mYnUM sFB sFB rwKy. myry qy pUrf kbjLf jmfey. ijvyN myry bfp ny myrI mF qy kIqf hY. mYnUM QwpV mfry. pqf myrf bfp myrI mF nUM kdoN QwpV mfrdf sI? jdoN Aus df bfhr iksy nfl pMgf huMdf sI qy Auh bfhr hOlf pY jFdf sI. myrI mF nUM pqf huMdf sI awj iPr srdfr jI duKI hn.
‘ieh dunIaF vI ikqnI jLflm hY.’ myrI mF dy ieh afKrI sLbd huMdy sn. mYN qF cfhuMdI hF Auh mYnUM GroN kwZx dI DmkI dyvy qy bfd ivc guwsf lQx qoN bfd dMd kwZx lwg pvy. mYN zrdy mfry Aus dI rotI pkfvF. lUx imrcF AuhdI mrjLI muqfbk pfvF. kdy Gwt kdy vwD. AuhnUM suafdI KfxF Kuaf ky KusL hovF. pr Auh aYsf nhIN hY. ies gwl df mYnUM aPsos hY, bhuq aPsos hY. mYnUM qy lwgdf Auh mYnUM afpxI pqnI nhIN smJdf, isrPL iewk aOrq smJdY.”
“ ieh qF sgoN cMgI gwl hY. aOrqF qy qrsdIaF hn aYsy mfhOl nUM. aOrq qy afpxy afp nUM ajLfdI idvfx leI jdo-jihd kr rhI hY qy qusIN ipafirE AultI gMgf vl myrf mqlb gMgoqrI vl qury jf rhy ho? quhfzf idmfg qy TIk hY?”
“ sr jI mYnUM bdlx dI koisLsL nf kro. ieh quhfzI afpxI iPlfsPI hY. Xfd afieaf kuJ? kI qusIN vI AuhnF lwKF ivcoN hI ho? nhIN nhIN jy ho qF dws idAu, hmny qy iewQy af ky glqI kr leI. ajy qF mYN hor bhuq kuJ sFJf krn nUM iPrdI sI. pqf qF lwgy quhfzf. nhIN qF CyqI Cutkfrf hoAU, quhfzy qoN vI.” hrI ny myrI BMbIrI GuMmf idwqI sI. mYN cuwp irhf ijqnf icr BMbIrI GuMmdI rhI.
“myrI mF kol Jumky sn. ilsL ilsL krdy. nwk ivc nwQxI, hwQF `c cUVIaF, pYrF `c pjLybF, pYrF dIaF AuNglF `c kcIlF, mwQy qy itwkf, gly ivc mMgl sUqr, mwQy dy aYn ivckfr lfeI ibMdI . iehnF ivcoN kuJ sony dy qy kuJ sony dy nhIN. mwQy df itwkf sony df nhIN sI pihly, pr iPr iewk idn myry bfp ny afpxy hwQIN sony df itwkf ilaf ky myrI mF df mwQf sony rMgf kr idwqf. myry kol qy kuJ vI nhIN. JumikaF nUM Cwzky bfkI sfrf kuJ keI vfrI bfp ny vyicaf qy keI vfrI KrIidaf pr primMdr ny qy kdy kuJ KrIidaf nhIN kdy kuJ vyicaf nhIN.”
“pr aOrq dy ieh gihxy qF kihMdy hn gulfmI dI insLfnI hn. iewk pCUpuxy dI pCfx mfqr. awjkwlH jLmfnf bdl igaf hY. aOrq mrd brfbr Kloqy hn. smF bdl igaf hY, smF bdl irhf hY.”
“ kuJ nhIN bdilaf, sgoN aOrq dI srdfrI Kus rhI hY. pirvfr qy BIV af jfvy qF aOrq kI kr skdI hY? kIhdy awgy hfVy kZygf bMdf jy bMdI dy pwly hI kuJ nhIN.”
“aOrq kol bYNk-bYNls hY. zflr kmfAux dI smrQf hY.” mYN iCwQf pY igaf.
“ sB bkvfs[[[jy aOrq kol afqm-snmfn hI nhIN irhf, bYNk bYNls nUM iksy kI krnf. rUh df rwj qF Jumky pfAux ivc hY, Jumky koeI kwpVy nhIN hn, aOrq dy ijsm df ihwsf hn. aOrq df kwj hn. aOrq df suafd hY.”
mYN kuwcjf ijhf muskrfieaf. myrI BMbIrI mUDy mUMh izgI peI sI. “hrI Coty huMdy gfxf suxdy huMdy sI, Jumkf igrf ry brylI ky bjLfr myN. mYnUM ieh gfxf bVf CCorf lwgdf sI aYvyN Puwkrf ijhf, ssqy ijhy zFns vflf, pr qyrIaF gwlF nfl hux smJ af irhf hY ik brylI dy bjLfr ivc izigaf Jumkf koeI mfmUlI nhIN sI. Aus df lwBxf bhuq jLrUrI sI. mYN hPqy ku qwk jfxf hY ieMzIaf. mfrUMgf cwkr brylI vI jy lB ipaf qf qYnUM Pon krUMgf. jy nf vI lBf qF qYnUM Pon krky dsUMgf ik Auh brylI vflf nhIN lwBxf jy hor koeI lwBxf hY qF dws.”
“jLrUr dsFgI. JumikaF dI sfeI dy idwqI hY, sLfied quhfzy afAux qwk iqafr ho jfx.” hrI muskrf rhI sI. Aus dIaF awKF dI qkxI ivc lohVy df sLor sI.
“hrI myrI iewk smisaf hY. sLfied qyrI mdd dI loV pvy.
“huwkm jnfb.” hrI hux cFBlI hoeI sI.
“gwl isrIas hY. mYN socdf hF ik qyry nfl gwl krF jF nF.”
“jy quhfnUM socxf pY irhf hY, qF bhuq hI mfVI gwl hY. ajy vI jy qusIN koeI gwl kihx leI socdy ho qF lfhnq hY afpxy dovF qy.”
“gwl jy qyry iewkly dI huMdI qF sLfied ieqnf nf socdf. primMdr nUM vI ivsLvfsL ivc lYxf pvygf.”
“ieh gwl qF vfkeI mYN socI hI nhIN ik kdy qufhzI gwl moVn leI primMdr vI ikqy hovygf.”
“ gwl ies qrHF hY ik sfzI jfiedfd df koeI rOlf hY qy myrI CotI BYx sfeIn krn nUM mMndI nhIN. Aus df pRfhuxf mMndf hY pr Auh afpxI hI dunIaF ivc rihMdI hY ik ieh qy ipAu vycx vflI gwl hY. Aus kmlI nUM dunIaf dfrI dI ieqnI smJ nhIN. jy vkq isr kuJ nf kIqf qF sLrIkF ny ikhVI Gwt krnI hY. mYN cfhuMnf ik jy loV peI qF Aus dI jgHf qYnUM KVf kr dyeIey. sfrf ieMqjLfm bfkI TIk Tfk hY. qyrI qy AuhdI Aumr iewko jyhI hY.”
“iehdy ivc socx vflI ikhVI gwl hY. ijs qrHF qusIN TIk smJdy ho, kr ilAu. iesy bhfny mYN vI ieMzIaf gyVf mfr lvFgI.”
Aus qoN bfd mYN ieMzIaf cwly igaf. afKrI mOky CotI vI mMnky ieMzIaf af geI sI. iewk mhInf mYnUM hrI cyqy vI nf rhI. jdoN mYN afieaf qF hrI mYnUM PYktrI ivc Dfh ky imlI. Aus dIaF awKF dy sLor ivc iewk ajIb swKxfpn sI. idl ivc koeI gwl CupfeI afpxy kMm ivc ruJI rhI.
“ ieh TIk nhIN.” mYN sfrI gwl suxky ikhf.
“ qusIN kOx huMdy ho ieh PYslf krn vfly ik kI TIk hY qy kI glq. myrI afpxI mrjLI hY, myrI afpxI soc hY. myrI hoNd nUM TIk qy glq dy do ihwisaF ivc vMzxf qF vYsy vI quhfzy afpxy isrjy asUlF dy iKlfPL hY.”
“ pr hwdoN vwD gwl nUM TIk syD dyxI vI qy myrf PLrjL hY. mYN mMndf sLrmsLfrI vflIaF gwlF hr iewk nfl sFJIaF krnIaF mumikn nhIN. mYN mfx mihsUs kr irhYN ik qUM myry qy ieqnf XkIn kr rhI hYN pr[[[”
“pr pur koeI nhIN. ies ivc koeI sLrm vflI gwl hmko nhIN idsdI. iehI hmrI ijLMdgI df swc hY. jo mYN quhfzy awgy nMGf kIqf hY.”
“hrI qYnUM JumikaF df EbsLYsLn ho igaf hY.”
“ nhIN nhIN, ieh koeI EbsLYsLn nhIN ieh qy myrI Aumr dy nfl nfl vwzf hoieaf hY, iPr EbsLYsLn kfhdf.”
“ pr primMdr[[[?”
“kI primMdr[[[ jy mYN Aus nUM khF mYnUM Jumky cfhIdy hn qF Auh khygf kfrz qy KrId ilaf. aYsy Jumky qF myry kMnF nUM kIVIaF vFg cMbV jfxgy. mYnUM Jumky cfhIdy hn kIVIaF nhIN.”
“ pr hrI[[[”
“ vyKo sr jI hmsy ho geI KunfmIN. quhfnUM dws ky. quhfzIaF gwlF ivc af ky mYN soicaf sI sfry mrd ieko ijhy nhIN huMdy. pr keIaF ny sLyr dI KwlH pfeI huMdI hY. KwlH lfh idAu ivcoN inklxgy Koqy dy Koqy. mYnUM lwgdf sI qusIN Koqy nhIN ho. ikAuNik quhfzIaF gwlF KoiqaF nfloN vwKrIaF sn. aKy iksy nUM bdlIdf nhIN, smuwcqf ivc leIdf hY qy ieh hY quhfzI smuwcqf? qy jdoN hmny disaf afpxf swc, qusIN vI lwg pey ihxkx. kI loV sI mYnUM vrglfAux dI. mYN koeI knPYLsLn nhIN kr rhI quhfzy awgy qy nf quhfnUM lgfm pfAux dyvFgI afpxI soc qy. ijMnf nfhqI Aunf puMn.”
“Auh bfibE glqI ho geI muafP kr dy. cwl mYnUM vI iewk ppI dy dy.”
“ ppI Cwzky jo mrjLI kr lvo Koqf sr jI pr Aus qoN bfd mYnUM blfieAu nf. quhfzf hmrf myl imlfp KLqm. ijwQy iewk AuWQy do pr lfhnq hY ies jIx qy.[[[ Aus qoN bfd.”
“myry qy ikAuN mYN qy kuJ nhI ikhf.”
“ ikhf qy primMdr ny vI kuJ nhIN. nf Auhny Auh kIqf jo mYnUM cfhIdf sI qy nf qusIN Kry AuWqry.”
“ mYN Blf ikAuN?”
“hmko nsIhqF nhIN cfhIdIaF, smJy? qusIN dosq ho, dosq hI rho, gfeIz nf bxo.”
“cwl myrI Cwz, primMdr df kI ksUr hY qyrI njLr ivc? mYN keI kuJ jfxdf hF pr qyrf ivcfr jfxnf cfhuMnf, sLfied aOrq dIaF BfvnfvF dI koeI prq smJ skF.”
“ primMdr ny myry nfl ivafh nhIN kIqf, iewk aOrq dy gosLq nfl ivafh kIqf hY.”
“ pr vDIaf gosLq nfl ivafh kIqf hY.” mYN sMjLIdgI nUM pyqlf krn leI iewk GtIaf ijhf iPLkrf boilaf ijs df mYnUM vI aPsos hoieaf qy hrI ny vI koeI noits nf ilaf. mYN sMjLIdgI nUM brkrfr rwKx leI ikhf, “ pr qUM Auhdy ivcoN afpxy bfp nUM ikAuN ZUMz rhI hYN? qUM ikAuN cfhuMdI hYN ik Auh qYnUM afpxI jfiedfd smJy. Auhdy kwpVy tMgx vflI ikwlHI bxky qyrf ikhVf skUn sLfq hox vflf hY? Auh qYnUM QwpV mfry qy iPr muafPI mMgy?”
“qYnUM nhIN pqf sr jI, afdmI sfrf idn Kipaf ikRiJaf dunIaF nfl lVdf, hfrdf jdoN Gr afAuNdf hY qy AuhnUM afpxf guwsf AuWqfrn leI koeI afpxf cfhIdf hY ijs `qy Auh afpxI hkUmq kr sky qy Aus dI Auh hkUmq hY Aus dI bIvI. Auh pI ky jdoN KusL huMdf hY qF bIvI dy kMnF duafly lmky JumikaF nfl Kyzdf hY. myrI mF myry bfp dy iKJx qy KusL huMdI sI. Aus nUM KusL krn nfl Aus dI iqRpqI huMdI sI. qUM smJdf hYN nf iqRpqI iksnUM kihMdy hn? nhI myrf nhIN iKafl qYnUM iesdf ielm hY. iqRpqI jo aOrq dI qlfsL hY. pr myrI mF dI iewk iqRsLnf huMdI sI ik svyry jfx lwigaF Aus df bfp hOlf Puwl ho ky kMm qy jfvy, iKJx iKJfAux dI dunIaF ivc. sfl ivc iewk vfr myrI mF sfry gihxy pfky myry bfp dI ieMqjLfr krdI sI, afpxI sfrI gulfmI dy smrpx nfl. ieh idn sI Auhnf dy ivafh dI vrHy-gMZ. ies idn kdy vI AuhnF dI lVfeI nhIN hoeI sI. myrI mF afpxy pYrF dIaF klIcIaF smyq qurI iPrdI mYnUM bhuq cMGI lgdI sI. pr sr jI ieh sfrf kuJ mYnUM ikAuN nhIN imilaf?”
“pr ieqnI rUVIvfdI ho ky ieh qUM kI krn lwgI hYN?”
“Auh afieaf sI trFto sfzy Gr. mYN qy Bwul Bulf geI sI. pr pqf nhIN ikAuN ikvyN Auhny primMdr nfl dosqI pf leI. AuhnUM dyKidaF pihlF qF mYnUM awg hI lwg geI. pr iPr ieh awg hOlI hOlI mwTI pYNdI hor hI rUp aKiqafr krky hmko mwTf mwTf syk idMdI inwG dyx lwg peI. Aus df iPwkf ijhf cyhrf.”
“ ikqnf ku iPwkf?”
“ bs sr jI ieh smJ lvo, Auh iewk sfieaf sI. kfly rMg df. ijs df isrPL klbUq idsdf sI. iewk JfAulf ijhf. qury jFdy df koeI KVfk nhIN. sfh dI koeI avfjL nhIN. mYN Aus nUM BUq qy nhIN kihMdI ikAuNik Auhdy kolHoN mYnUM koeI zr nhIN afAuNdf sI. Aus dy pRCfvyN ny dsqfny pfey hoey sn jF Aus dy hwQ nMgy sn ies cIjL dy aihsfs nfl vI mYnUM koeI mqlb nhIN sI.
pr iPr iewk idn acfnk mYnUM Aus dy hwQ nMgy idsy. hmrf XkIn bwJ igaf ik Aus dy hwQF qy koeI dsqfny nhIN sn. Auh Pfier plys qy peI ntrfj dI dyvI nUM CUh irhf sI. Aus ny myry koloN igwlf kwpVf mMigaf. kwpVy nfl ntrfj dI mUrqI nUM sfPL kIqf. kwpVf mYlf ho igaf. mYnUM bhuq sLrm afeI. pqf nhIN myrI afeI sLrm nUM Aus ny iks qrHF mihsUs kIqf pr hmko Aus df cyhrf kuJ kuJ idsx lwg ipaf. Aus df nwk pihlF vFg hI iqwKf qy lMbf sI. iblkul Ausy qrHF df ijvyN df hoxf cfhIdf hY. kuJ kuJ myrI mF vrgf.”
“qusIN mfVf nf mihsUs kro ieh ntrfj df DfqU hI aYsf hY, pqf hI nhIN lwgdf ikQoN ikqnf ku mYlf hY. lvo hux ieh iblkul sfPL hY. lfgy pfsy qoN afeI inWkI qoN inwkI imwtI dI kxI vI ieh afpxy vwl srkf lYNdf hY. bws ieh smJ lvo ieh iesdf sLOk hY. sfzy Gr vI hY aYsI mUrqI. mYN Aus dI idhfVI ivc do vfrI sPLfeI krdf hF. ien PYkt mYN qF Aus mUrqI nUM hor vI sjfieaf hoieaf hY. Aus dy kMnF nUM ivMn ky Kry sony dy Jumky vI pfey hoey hn.”
“ bs vwj igaf vfjf.” mYN kuJ jLor dI bol ipaf.
“ikhVf vfjf? pUrI gwl qy suxo.”
“hrI mYN koeI knPYLsLn bOks ivc KVf pfdrI nhIN hF. mYN qYnUM dyK skdf hF. Pfdr dy rty rtfey zfielOg kuJ kimsLn huMdy qy kuJ EimsLn. kuJ kro qy kuJ nf kro. bIby rfxy lok suxdy hn qy cly jFdy hn.”
“pr srjI mYN qy knPYsLn kr hI nhIN rhI. ieh qy myrI suBfivk qor hY.”
“cwl awgy suxf.” mYN hfr rhI kuVI dI AugfeI pihlI zozI nUM dyKxf cfhuMdf sI. ieh zozI Puwl nhIN sI, ieh myrI smJ sI qy ieh jLihr nhIN sI ieh hrI df Brm sI.
“ntrfj dI mUrqI dy kMnF ivc pfey JumikaF dI kQf suxidaF hmrf sUrj AudY ho igaf. awKF ivc awKF pfky gwl krn dI Aus dI mfVI afdq, myrI loV bx geI. Kry sony dy JumikaF nfl afpxy kMnF nUM sjfAuNx dI iKwc, myrI rUh dI loV bx geI.”
“ pr ieh qy njLfiejL kbjLf hY.”
“myrI swKxI rUh, iesnUM kbjLf nhIN smJdI. mYN mG peI sI. do rfqF irhf isrPL myrf sYl Pon lYx Kfqr. qIsry idn asIN Aus nUM Cwzx bPlo gey. rsqy ivc lwg ipaf Auho rfg alfpx jo hmrI kmjLorI hY. ijLMdgI aYsI hY, ijLMdgI vYsI hY. Plfxf rfg Plfxy mOsm ivc CyiVaf jFdf hY qy iPr Auhny kihky rsqy ivc kfr Kilafr leI. cfry pfsy drwKLq sn. iewk dUjy qoN QoVHI ivwQ qy Kloqy drwKLq. kihMdY dyKo iehnF drwKqF dI dunIaF nUM. azol KVy quhfnUM byjfn lwgxgy pr iehnF dIaF afps ivc irsLqydfrIaF hn. awq dy mOsm ivc ieh iewk dUjy df sfQ idMdy hn. rfq dy hnyry ivc iehnF dIaF mihPLlF sjdIaF hn. pwqy afpxf srUp vtfAuNdy hn. iehnF dy ivafh vI huMdy hn. iksy df prfg koeI afpxy grB ivc pfldf hY qy iksy df grB iksy df prfg ZUMzx leI pOxF nUM avfjL mfrdf hY. pOxf dI iswLdq mfnxI hovy qF drwKqF qoN AuWqm hor koeI Drm nhIN. hor ikqnf hI kuJ Aus ny ikhf jo hmko Xfd nhIN pr myry ijLhn ivc visaf hoieaf hY. Xfd hY qy isrP AuhdI Pon kfl.”
“bVf PuMkfr bMdf hY.” mYN hOlI ijhI pr hrI nUM suxfky ikhf.
“ jo mrjLI kho hmko qF Aus dI iewko gWl ny KrId ilaf. kihMdf sI hrI amrIkf af ky ntrfj dI mUrqI nUM JumikaF qoN mukq krdy. qusIN dwso srjI mYN hux kI krF? ieh nf kihxf PrgYWt iewt. ieh dwso kdoN qy iks qrHF jfvF qy qusIN hmrI kI mdd kr skdy ho? mYnUM Auh Jumky cfhIdy hn.”
“ hrI iehnF gwlF dI gihrfeI dIaF jVHF nhIN huMdIaF qy jVHF qoN bgYr asIN jLordfr Bwjy jFdy pfxI dy Dwky Auh pwQr hF ijhnF dI afpxI koeI JuwgI nhIN huMdI. mYN vI iriVaf hF. iewk kQf myrI vI hY. iesy leI mYN qYnUM suJf hI dy skdf hF ik ieh sB Btkx hY. ies rog df ielfj bhuq musLkl hY. lY myrI vI kQf sux.”
“srjI mYN qy quhfnUM sLrIP smJdI sI pr qusIN qy pUry kmIny inkly, quhfzy vrgy hlkfey kuwqy nUM qy golI mfr dyxI cfhIdI hY. lfhnq hY quhfzy qy, iPr kI hoieaf?”
“hoxf kI hY qy roxf kI hY. Btkx nUM ijhnF mrjLI vDfeI jfAu.”
“hmry mMnx ivc nhIN afAuNdI quhfzI suxI gwl, koeI ieqnf vI igr skdf hY?”
“qF hI qy mYN kihMdf hF, ieh idlF dy kihxy, rUh dy gihxy nhIN huMdy. lwgdy hn pr huMdy nhIN.”
“srjI mYnUM quhfzf zYibt kfrz qy Aus df ipMn nMbr cfhIdf hY. prsoN svyry mYnUM afpxy krYizt kfrz qy kfr rYNt krky dyvo. qVky Cy vjyy mYN cwlxf hY, awT vjyy qoN pihlF pihlF mYN amrIkf df bfrzr krfs krnf hY. qusIN myrf kfrz svfeIp ieMn qy svfeIp afAUt krnf hY. myrf GroN koeI PLon afvy qF gwl nUM sMBflxf hY. pUry do vjyy hmny kYnyzf df bfrzr krfs kr, cfr vjyy qoN pihlF rYNtl kfr vfps krky, JumikaF smyq Gr jfxf hY qy Pyr quhfnUM Pon krFgI.”
“ qy jy kfr rsqy ivc pMkcr ho geI Pyr?”
“jy qusIN cfhuMdy ho kfr pMkcr nf hovy qF nhIN hovygI.”
“qUM tlxf nhIN. kfr qy pMkcr nhIN hovygI pr qyrI koeI gfrMtI nhIN. mYnUM pqf hY qUM af ky mYnUM kuJ nhIN dsxf. ikAuNik dsx leI qyry kol kuJ rihxf hI nhIN.”
“ajy mYN kuJ nhIN kih skdI.”
“ pr jy qUM khyN qF mYN kory kfgjL qy ilKky lOkr ivc rwK idMdf hF ik qyry nfl kI bIqx vflI hY. af ky pVH lvIN. jy ieMn ibMn gwl swc nf inkly qF mYnUM srjI kihxf Cwz dyvIN.” awj Pyr mYnUM purfxI aprfD kQf Xfd af rhI sI. sunIqf do mhIny bfd vfps af geI sI. nf pRymI irhf qy nf pqI. nf sunIqf pqnI bxI nf bytI nf mF nf pyRimkf. bws iewk mfs df loQVf. mYN cfhuMdf sI hrI nfl aYsf nf hovy. iesy krky hI mYN Aus dI mdd kr irhf sI. myry kol Aus dI byhqrI df hor koeI hwl vI nhIN sI. myrI jLrf ijqnI isafxp Aus dI ijLMdgI qbfh kr skdI sI. iqlkdy pwQr nUM kox rok skdf hY? mYN qF cfhuMdf sI ik ieh iqlkdf pwQr afpxy Kyq qoN lFBy nf jf pvy. asIN duaf hI kr skdy hF ik iqlkdf pwQr iksy jINdy jfgdy iensfn qy nf izgy.
awj dI rfq myry leI kihr dI rfq sI. svyry hrI ny jfxf sI. amrIkf ivc bYTf mYN Aus df ieMqjLfr kr irhf sI. amrIkf ivc bYTf mYN hrI dy srIr df ieMqjLfr kr irhf sI. mYN bhuq JUT bol cuwikaf sI. cMgy qoN cMgy sLbdF nUM curfieaf sI mYN. mYN hrI nUM pRBfivq krn leI Aus dIaF kmjLorIaF nUM lwiBaf sI. Aus dI bIq rhI ijLMdgI nUM mjLlUm sfbq krn leI koisLsLF kIqIaF sn. aOrq koeI vsqU nhIN hY, aOrq koeI gulfm nhIN hY. awj dy Xuwg dI aOrq cMd qfiraF qy phuMc rhI hY. hvfeI jhfjL Auzf rhI hY qy qUM ajy qwk isrPL afpxy pqI nfl rih rhIN hYN? hux aOrq dy jfgx df smF hY. bhuq gulfmI Jyl leI smfj dI. cwl AuWT qy af jf myrIaF bfhvF ivc. mYN qYnUM ajLfdI dyvFgf. qyry kuafry sMklpF nUM nivafvFgf. Coty ijhy KUbsUrq pwQr nUM myry pfxIaF dIaF CwlF ny afpxI jgHf qoN srkf idwqf sI. pwQr ihl ipaf. afpxI jgHf qoN QoVHf ijhf srikaf.
Aus dy QoVHy ijhy srkx qoN bfd mYN cfhuMdf sI Auh dubfrf afpxI jgHf qy iPt ho jfey. pr ikwQy Auh qy keIaF nUM imwDdf, roldf, quiraf hI jf irhf sI. Aus dI cfl hux mtk vflI nhIN sI. ijs qrHF mYN imwQ leI sI. bKsL leIN rwbf.
svyry pMj vjyy mYN GroN cwl ipaf. kfr rYNt kridaF mYN ajIb qwkxI nfl pwQr vl vyiKaf. hrI dy kMn suMny sn. hmysLF ltkdIaF vflIaF Auh Gr rwK afeI sI. awj sLfm jdoN hrI prqygI qF iehdy kMnF ivc Jumky hoxgy jF nhIN. kI kwlH ieh kMm qy vflIaF pihnky afvygI jF Jumky. hrI smJdI sI ik Auh Jumky hI pihnygI. vflIaF qy JumikaF dI dohrI ijLMdgI jIx leI byqfb hrI, KusL ids rhI sI. hrI cwly geI. lYPt trn lYky hrI ny rYNtl kfr nUM awKoN Auhly kr ilaf.
mYN amrIkf Aus df ieMqjLfr kr irhf sI. awj mYN ijwqxf sI. ies ijwq leI mYN kfPI myhnq kIqI sI. myry iqwKy jLihrIly zMg mYnUM suafd dy rhy sn. sfbq sbUq hrI myry sfhmxy sI. pWQr, PuuwlF dI vrKf kr irhf sI. irmiJm, irmiJm, inwkI inwkI kxI nfl mYN iBwj irhf sI. myry aMdr dy syk nfl iewkimwk hoeI ieh grmfeI kxI mYnUM suafd dy rhI sI. iPr ies irm iJm nfl mYnUM TMz lwgx lwg peI. TMz vDdI hI jf rhI sI. inwG dI guMjfiesL Kqm hoeI jf rhI sI. hOlI hOlI ies guMjfiesL ny afpxI hoNd smyt leI. hrI KusL sI. bhuq hI KusL. Aus dI rUh inwG mfx rhI sI. iBwjidaF qy iBwjx qoN pihlF, myry kIqy kOl krfr Aus dy idl idmfg mwlI jf rhy sn. mwQy qy cMn Aukr irhf sI. ies qoN pihlF ik ieh cMn AudY ho ky y hrI dI koeI afs jgfvy mYN ies rOsLn ho rhy cMn nUM BMn dyx df PYslf kr ilaf. sLfied ieh PYslf nhIN sI. ieh qy myrI koeI sfijsL sI. cfry gnyrIaF ijwqky mYN soPy qy bYT igaf. myry QoVijhy AuDVy bUt myry vl dyK rhy sn.
myrI aglI kIqI jfx vflI gwl hrI dI smJ qoN bfhr sI. kuafrI sno nfl hrI dy pYr Dox vflI gwl myry gly ivc hI awtk geI.
hrI mYN cfhuMnYN qyry pYrF qy lwgI DUV mYN Doky qYnUM pivwqr kr idaF. sLfied ieh gwl dubfrf suxn leI hrI dIaF sfrIaF ieMdrIaF AuWqsuwk sn. hrI nUM qy pqf hI nhIN sI ik Auh bfjI hfr cuwkI hY. ieh pl ipafr dy pl nhIN sgoN bfjI dI iswD puwT dy pl sn. ieh pl hrI dy leI Brm dy pl sn. ilbVy pYrF qoN byKLbr hrI, myrIaF awKF ivcoN kuJ lwBx dI koisLsL kr rhI sI.
mYN qy kdy vI hrI nUM ieh nhIN ikhf sI ik mYN isrPL qyrf hF. sLfied myry sLbdF dy hyr PLyr ny hrI nUM pjYisv bxf idwqf sI. myrI iewk sImf hY. hrI dI vI iewk sImf hoxI cfhIdI hY. Prk isrP ieh hY ik mYnUM afpxI sImf dI pCfx hY qy hrI ies sImf qoN bypCfx hY. afeI kYNt aPorz iewt.
awj sfrf idn mYN bhuq hI bycYn irhf. hrI kI kr rhI hovygI. Aus dy kMnF ivc JumikaF nUM ltkfAuNx vflI ipMn peI hovygI jF nhIN. kfsL hrI mYnUM muafP kr dyvy. mYN jF myry vrgy lokF ny hrI nUM jF Aus vrgy hor lokF nUM bQyrf Kuafr kr ilaf hY. hrI awj af rhI hovygI. kfsL Aus dy kMn KflI hox qy rUh BrI hoeI. kfsL mYN Aus nUM nf bdlx dI KfmosL koisLsL qoN mukq ho jfvF. ikqy mYnUM kuJ puwC hI nf lvy. mYN Aus nUM Auhdy hfl qy Cwz ky gunfh kIqf hY. msIN cfr vwjy qy Pyr Cy vjy hrI df Pon afieaf. Aus ny kfr vfps kr idwqI sI. mYN kuJ nf puwiCaf.
agly idn hrI kMm qy nf afeI. iPr agly idn vI kMm qy nhIN afeI. mYnUM iPkr lwgf. Aus df svfeIp kfrz myry kol sI. nf koeI Pon nf sunyhf. mYN jfxdf sI ieh nfrml vqIrf sI, ieh ies qrHF hI hoxf sI. mYN ieh vI jfxdf sI ik Auh jdoN vI kMm qy afvygI Aus dy kMn sMuny hoxgy. brylI dy bjLfr ivc izwgf Jumkf ajy qwk iksy nUM nhIN lwBf iPr hrI kIhdy pfxIhfr hY.
qIsry idn suMny kMnF nfl hrI kMm qy afeI. Auqiraf hoieaf cyhrf, awKF ivc lflI qy mUMh qy kuJ kihx dI kfhl ny Aus df hulIaf ivgfiVaf hoieaf sI. mYN kuJ vI puwCxf munfisb nf smiJaf.
“srjI qusIN bhuq Krfb ho.” itm hfrtn dI nuwkr ivc bYiTaF hrI df pihlf vfk myrf jfixaF pCfixaF sI.
“mYN kI kIqf?”
“qusIN hmko vrijaf ikAuN nhIN?”
“myry vrjx df koeI Pfiedf nhIN sI.”
“pr qusIN koisLsL vI nhIN kIqI.”
“mYN ikhf nhIN sI ik ieh TIk nhIN? sLfied qYnUM Xfd nhIN.”
“mYnUM sB Xfd hY.”
“mYnUM pqf hY ik qYnUM sB Xfd hY. mYnUM ieh vI pqf sI ik qUM grYvItysLn qoN pryH jf rhI hYN. mYN ieh vI smJdf sI ik jy mYN koeI Dwky nfl kuJ kihxf cfihaf vI qF qUM suxnf nhIN. Auh qyry Cx, suxn dy kfbl hI nhIN sn. qUM afp hI qy kihMdI sI mYN koeI pfdrI nhIN hF. mYN qy cfihaf sI, pr myry cfhux nfl kI huMdf hY?”
“ hF kI loV sI, hm QozI koeI afpxI QoVHf sI jo vrjdy.”
“ dyK hrI, nfiqaF df vfsqf nf dy. nfiqaF dy afpxy bol huMdy hn. ieh bol, ijMLdgI dI kmfeI dy hfxI nhIN huMdy. mYN qy isrP ieh cfhuMdf sI ik Guwp hnyrI glI lMGidaF qyry qy iksy dI rosLnI nf pY jfvy. myrI vI nhIN. ”
“ pr qusIN dosqI vI nhIN inBfeI. cwlo TIk awj mYN knPYsLn bOks ivc KVy Pfdr nfl imldI hF.”
“pr qyrf qy cyhrf nMgf hY, myrf jfixaF pCfixaF, qYnUM nyk slfh nhIN dy skdf. qYnUM ieh nhIN kih skdf ik knPYsLn krky afpxy afp nUM surKLrU krdy. rwb bKsLxhfr hY. bMdf Buwlxhfr hY. bhuqy isafixaF vFg ieh vI nhIN kih skdf ik afpxIaF KfhsLF nUM dbfAu nhIN. AuhnF nUM pUrf krky hI rwbI mfrg qy jf skdy ho. qYnUM afpxy ihwsy df Btkxf qy pYxf hI hY. ”
“cwl kQf suxf afpxI.”
“kfhdI kQf, ieqnf apolojYitk qy PYminsLt bMdf mihsUs krky mYnUM qF AudF hI koPLq huMdI hY. hr gwl qy muafPI hr gwl qy lOijk, iesqrF vI kdy huMdf hY? bMdf gunfh vI kry qF ihwk qfxky krnf cfhIdf hY. rINgdy kIiVaF vFg nhIN.”
“Pyr qUM dws iks qrHF hoxf cfhIdf hY?”
“bMdf ikqy qF aVbI hovy. afpxI gwl mMnfvy Dwky nfl . pUrny pfeI PwtI qy hI ilKI jfxf. ieh vI koeI slIkf hY?”
“hrI qYnUM iewk gwl dwsF? qyry afpxy bfry.”
“ hF dwso?”
“qYnUM zOmInysLn cfhIdI hY qy ieh aryNjz iesLk ivcoN nhIN imldI.”
“iPr ikQoN imlygI?”
“ isrP primMdr koloN. Auhdy kol sB kuJ hY, qyry Jumky vI. isrP qYnUM idsdy nhIN.”
“iPr ieh Btkx ikAuN?”
“ ieh Btkx nhIN. ieh koeI iesLk AusLk nhIN. ieh qy hvs hY. qyrI afpxI pflI qy lfzF nfl pRvfn cVfeI, bcpn qoN lY ky hux qwk AuWkrI hoeI, iewk aYsI qmMnf, ijsny qYnUM aMnf kIqf hoieaf hY. dulhn bxn df pl, qUM afpxy hwQ nfl Guwtky PiVaf hoieaf hY. qUM afpxy afp nUM sjfky bYT geI. qUM smJdIN hYN ik qyrI sjfvt nUM iksy dyiKaf nhIN mfixaF nhIN. qYnUM pqf crKy dI GUkr ajy vI ijLMdf hY? jogI sYWl PonF dy huMdy suMdy ajy vI phfVF qoN lihMdy hn. pOVI dy hr zMzy df afpxf iewk njLrIaf huMdf hY. primMdr iksy Auprly zMzy qy KVf afpxy bwicaF dI Kfqr DMn iewkTf krn ivc ruiJaf hoieaf hY.”
“mYN ajy himltn vI nhIN phuMcI sI jdoN primMdr df Pon af igaf. kihMdY hrI mYnUM qurn lwigaF Xfd nhIN irhY. ipwCwly hPqy hI qUM tivMkwlHH dI aYjUkysLn plYn dI gwl kIqI sI. mYN afr[eI[aYs[pI df cYWk kwtky qyry zrYisMg tybl qy rwK idwqf hY. cyqy nfl post kr dyvIN.
AudoN mYnUM kuJ vI mihsUs nhIN hoieaf. mYN qy hvf nfl gwlF kr rhI sI.
TMZI TMZI pOx nUM mYN hwQF rfhIN ijsm nfl Coh rhI sI. koloN lMG rhy drwKLqF dI qyjL rPqfrI ny hmko srUiraf hoieaf sI. drwKqF nflo tuwty pwiqaF df nfc dyK rhI sI. hvf bhuq qyjL vwg rhI sI. rYNtl kfr, qyjL hvf nUM cIrdI hoeI avfjL pYdf kr rhI sI. Auh avfjL nhIN sMgIq sI. Aus avfjL nUM PVn leI mYN kfr df sLIsLf QoVHf ijhf hyTF kIqf. do pwqy agV ipwCV AuWz rhy sn. iewk QoVHf ijhf hI dUr AuWzdf nwcdf gfAuNdf kuJ ijLafdf hI awgy lMG igaf. Pyr pqf nhIN Aus nUM kI suwJf, Aus ny Jol ijhI mfrky afpxI gqI GtfeI ik aYny nUM ipClf pwqf Aus dy ivc vwjdf vwjdf bicaf. mYN soc rhI sI ik jy mYN Auh ipwCwlf pwqf huMdI qF mYN Aus dy ivc vwjxf hI vwjxf sI. mYN muskrf peI. mYN afpxy prs ivcoN gMm kwZ ky mUMh ivc pfieaf. imrr ivcoN afpxf mUMh dyiKaf. prs ivcoN ilpsitk kwZ ky hwQ ivc PV leI. mYnUM pqf sI ajy iesdI loV nhIN pr iPr vI pqf nhIN mYnUM kfhdI kfhlI sI. mYN pwiqaF qoN kfPI awgy inwkl afeI sI. stonI krIk lMG ky mYN typ lf leI. quhfzI idwqI kYst mYnUM psMd nhIN afeI. mYN afpxI bhuq ipafr nfl iqafr kIqI kYist lf leI. imrr ivcoN mYN afpxI muskrfht dyK ky muskrf peI. srjI, myry nhIN iKafl hmny pihlF ikqy aYny hulfs pl gujLfry hox. isrP afpxy afp nfl. koeI sfQ nhIN, koeI iKafl nhIN. koeI primMdr nhIN koeI sfieaf nhIN. hulfs dI ieh Auzfx trFto qoN sLurU ho ky bPlo qwk, Aus dy imlx qoN pihlF qwk sI. srjI, kI ieh hulfs dubfrf af ky Tihr skdf hY myrI ijLMdgI ivc?”
mYN muskrf ipaf, “ qy bPlo qoN trFto qwk dI AuWzfx bfry qyrf kI iKafl hY?”
“myrI ijLMdgI dy sB qoN bdqr pl. ijnHf nUM Xfd krky hI GOl afAuNdI hY. idl krdf hY ml ml ky nhfvF pr hr vfr lwgygf ik ijvyN kuJ mYl rih geI hY.”
“ vfpsI qy AuWzdy hoey pwqy ikvyN lwgy?”
“klolF krdy pwqy hY hI ikwQy sn vfpsI vyly?”
“pwqy qy hY sn isrPL AuhnF nUM dyKx dI qyrI iewCf KLqm ho geI sI.”
“quhfnUM ikvyN pqf?”
“mYN vI iksy vkq afpxI shI loV df inrfdr iesy qrHF hI kIqf sI. mYnUM vI sony df KrIidaf Cwlf bhuq mihMgf lwgf sI.”
“hux mYN kI krF?”
“iewk dUjy nUM nf bdlx dI sLrq kuJ nrm kryN qF dwsF?”
“ hF hF dwso.” hrI ny kfhlI pYky ikhf.
“kwlHH mYN iewk tIvI sLo dyK irhf sI. iewk motI TuwlI pr gorI icwtI kuVI styj qy bYTI sI. host mfeIk PVky msflydfr CurlIaF Cwz irhf sI qy drsLk styj dy Qwly kursIaF qy bYTy qfVIaF mfr mfr hws rhy sn. ieqny nUM styj qy pey iewk vzy tIvI skrIn qy iewk gMjf ijhf Blvfn afieaf. TulI kuVI afpxI kursI qoN AuWTky Aus nUM avf qvf bolx lwg peI. dovyN cIkF mfr rhy sn qy drsLk hws hwsky lot pot ho rhy sn. ies qrHF lwgdf sI ik jy ieh gMjf Blvfn styj qy af jfvy qF ies motI TuwlI kuVI ny Aus df kql kr dyxf hY. host ny jLordfr ijhI cIk mfrI qy Auh Blvfn scmuwc hI styj qy af igaf. Auh dovyN mrn mrfn qy AuqfrU sn qy drsLk hws hwsky dUhry cOhry ho rhy sn. gwl ivcoN ieh sI ik host ny pqf lgfAuxf sI ik motI TuwlI kuVI dy hoieaf bybI buafey df bfp kOx hY. ieh gwl Auh pihlF hI svIkfr kr cuwkI sI ik Aus nUM cfr bMidaF qy sLwk hY. drsLkF leI bVI idlcsp kuivj sI. spOnsLrjL dy aYz lgfqfr af rhy sn. suJf dr suJfvF nfl gwl iewQy inbVI ik zI[aYn[ey[ tYst krf ilaf jfvy.”
“ieho ijhy sLo qF cwldy hI rihMdy hn pr qusIN iesdf ijLkr ikAuN kr rhy ho?”
“hrI myrI hYrfnI df kfrx Auh host, Auh sponsrjL, sLo, Auh Blvfn muMzf jF motI TuwlI kuVI nhIN hY. blik drsLkF dI asYptMs hY jF qyrf ieh kihxf ik aYsy sLo qF cwldy hI rihMdy hn. qfVIaF mfr rhy GrF ivc bYTy anigxq tIvI iskins nfl pIVq rogI hI qyry JumikaF dy cor hn. myrI qYnUM ieko slfh hY, ieh slfh hI nhIN qyrf nsIb hY. afpxI psMd dy Jumky afp KrId qy rumkdI Pursq ivc primMdr nUM kih Auh qumry kMnF nUM isLMgfry.”
“hmry qumry kIqf qF mfr KfAugy, Koqy srjI.” hrI ny apxy irVy jf rhy pwQr nUM ijvyN koeI jgHf dy idqI hovy.
“myry qy ikqnf ku XkIn hY?”
“bhuq.”
“cwl afpxI kursI nUM kuJ ipwCy kr.”
hrI ny kursI ipwCy vwl srkf leI.
“hux afpxy swjy pYr nUM klfk vfeIjL GuMmf.” hrI ny myry af ky lwg ky swjy pYr nUM klfk vfeIjL GuMmfAuNxf sLurU kr idwqf.
“hux afpxy swjy hwQ dI iksy vI AuNgl nfl hvf ivc Cy ilK.” hrI ny ies qrHF hI kIqf. ijAuN hI Aus ny ies qrHF kIqf. gVbV ho geI. pYr ikqy Cy ikqy.
“idmfg dI qrHF sfzf jIxf vI pRI-progrfmz hY.” mYN afpxy Pon nUM bymqlb hI puwTf krky ikhf.
hrI ny gwl nUM smJ ilaf sI. Aus df XkIn sI ik ieh nhIN ho skdf jF pYr GuMmf lvo qy jF hvf ivc Cy ilK lvo. Aus dIaF aWKF dy cfnx ny afpxy afp nUM svfieaf kr ilaf. sLfied Auh cfhuMdI sI ik koeI Aus nUM XkIn dvf dyvy.
“DMnvfd, qUM dubfrf trfeI nhIN kIqI. pr sunIqf ny myrI gwl nhIN suxI sI.”